Love while you can...

Alfonso Flores January 1950 - January 2012 (61 y/o)

Job 34:15 all mankind would perish together and man would return to the dust.

Whenever I watch television and see people talk about their loved ones who passed away saying, "..Love them while they are alive and while you can.." , I didn't feel the weight and the meaning of this cliches, until my father passed away.

He died singing some videoke song. Fell down.
In a matter of 20 minutes, God took my father. Dead on arrival. Cardiac arrest.
I didn't make it to the hospital.
He is already inside the coffin. Dead, when I arrived home from work.
He didn't make it 3 days before his 62nd birthday.

I felt blank, numb and speechless.
Lucky are my mom, sister, neighbors who saw him and hugged him on his last minute.

It was then I realized, life is not in our hands. God will take it away whenever, wherever.
I loved my father more than he ever know, we have forgiven each other spiritually and God knows that, but now.. I can't even make him a cup of coffee. Too late.

All the people who visit him to say condolences has same thing to say.. that My father is so kind and friendly, that is why they say God took him at very young age.

No words can explain how I feel of losing a father. No words can comfort us.
We get our strength from the inspirational messages of our relatives and friends to survive each passing day.

So, to all you guys, cherish every moment with your love ones. For life is short for angst and misunderstandings. Forgive who did you wrong. Love while you can. Love while they can feel it.

I love you Papa. 
If I will be asked to pick a Dad on my next life. It will still be you Papa.
and Papa Please save a seat for me, where you are.. for in time we'll see each other again, till then please look over us, your family... 

I know our Lord Almighty and the angels are now guiding you safely on your travel. We love you Papa... :-)

SANA...

....sana magising ako isang araw na sabihan ako ng mga parents ni Louie...

"YOU PASSED THE TEST IHA, MAYAMAN TALAGA KAMI, HINDI KAMI AVERAGE CITIZEN LANG. GINAWA LANG NAMIN YUN, PARA MAKILALA NAMIN ANG TUNAY NA BABAENG MAGMAMAHAL SA ANAK NAMIN, SA KAHIRAPAN MAN O KAGINHAWAAN."

...syempre, pangarap ko lang yan, kaya weweirduhan ko na...parang sa mga koreanovela, kunwari average pero prinsipe pala...
...hindi naman sa mukha akong pera, pero pakiramdam ko may hangganan lahat...
...sana hindi ko pagsisihan ang magiging desisyon ko.
...please guide me Lord...

Happiness... indeed.

Ang sabi nila it's hard to find happiness sa panahon ngayon.

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Pero kung ikaw ang dahilan ng kasiyahan ng isang tao, puputulin mo ba ang kaligayahang iyon?
Tatapusin mo ba ang mga araw na magkasama kayo , kung sa bawat araw at sandaling magkasama kayo ay ipinagpapasalamat Niya dahil kasama ka niya?


Ang sagot ko?

Hindi.
becozzz .. It is Only now, and with Him, that I have something I can call MINE.

-pakornihan at senti mode muna. pangtanggal stress ko.

Farewell Adult Friendfinder Account

Nalulungkot ako!!!!
Hindi na nagrenew and Friendfinder Account sa TRG.
Kaya sa India or Malaysia na lang daw sila mag ta-transfer ng site. (AFF)

Reason for pulling out of AFF:

Binabarat daw ng AFF client ang TRG para sa renewal fee.
Syempre hindi naman papayag ang TRG na baratin kami, dahil ano nga naman papasweldo ng TRG sa agents kung binabarat kami ng AFF.

Kaya eto, pulled out ang FF Account sa TRG effective October 15,2011
Lipat daw kami ng Norsthstar, AT&T or isa pang eklavu account dito sa TRG.

At bayad parin daw kami til "we move in to a new account".
(dapat lang bayad, dahil if not, mas malaki babayaran nila pag ni-lay off nila kami.)

Pero sa Friday, punta ko ng Robinsons Pioneer.
Interview for Accenture (CSR/TSR) daw. ~papapresyo lang, if the price is right, then Gow ang beauty ko, if not, TRG parin til Christmas. Sayang ang 13th month alam mo yan!

So long for AFF.

Good vibes sana!

:)

Unfortunately...

One day , I was looking at my things and they looked slightly used.
My shoes, my bags, my phones.

I always feel like always wanted to buy something new to replace the old thingees I have. 

I've always wanted all the fashion trendy clothes, bags, shoes, that I always passed by on a window shopping.

Until I saw an old woman. Who rode the jeepney, guided by a little girl as her companion.

The old lady is blind, literally have no eyes. Her eyelids closed. 

She often wipes her eyelids, because of some moist.

Raising her brows from time to time, just to stretch the closed eyelids.

She was tightly holding the jeep arm rest, probably the only assurance that she can still do something "normal" like other people do. 

Suddenly I thought of all the tantrums I've had for not having all the trendy, and most fashionable things under the sun that I've been dreaming of, while this old woman, only sees darkness, black. 

Someone who won't ever see the sun, moon, stars anymore for the rest of her life.. while, I.. complain of seeing what I see and the materials things I can't have.

It suddenly came to my realization, in order for us to be happy. Never look up, cause there will always be someone, greater than us. Instead, look down... there is always someone more needy than us. 

Let's appreciate what we have. Share if we have more than enough. 

Love the (unique) life God has given us.

Good evening to everyone.

=)

Someday it will happen to you...

I don't know how or where to start, but life really surprises me.

One day I woke up and checked my online banking website, to my surprise all my cards ( ATM, Credit Card, Savings) were showing P0.00 balance.

I missed two (2) payments of my monthly auto loan, which resulted to a penalty of  P7,000.oo plus + + the two (2) monthly fee I need to pay.

But all of these obstacles, I surpassed through prayers, and having strong faith that I am bigger and stronger than my problems.........Woah! :)

And furthermore............

I am currently in a relationship, which is really opposite of what I dreamed of when I was a little girl.

Me and my Boyfriend: 

We don't eat in a luxurious restaurant.
We wait for movies in DVD instead of watching in bigscreen.
We don't sleep in luxurious hotels.
We don't travel in a very expensive out of town spots.
We don't have a car to use whenever we go out.
We don't have expensive clothes to give each other as gifts like other couple/s do.


I don't have the prince charming who rides a Mercedez Benz to fetch or drive me home.
My boyfriend doesn't have the sexiest woman that shows on the cover of the magazines.

But we share the laughter, the jokes, the hugs, the fights, the make-ups... that I never thought I would go through.

I don't have the fairy-tale relationship that I wished for, years ago, but this reality, is way better than what I dreamed of.

If one day we'll wake up that what we have in life is not what we  wanted, it's only a reminder that.. if God doesn't give us what we want, he will definitely give us what we only Need.

Have a blessed day to all.
:-)

Why?

One late afternoon, I passed by a granny about 80 years of age sitting on her knee high chair, with a basket of veggies on her lap. She doesn't even look like selling, she was just looking at the passersby walking to and fro in front of her. At her age I'm not sure if she can even say "bili na kayo..."

...A granny, instead of lying on her bed or doing some cross stitch... is still obliged to sit on the sidewalk for a small amount of money at the end of the day...

PS: I think I should stop posting about life's socio economic status related blogs... If I can't do anything about it... But I can't help it.... it really breaks my heart to think that the government officials lies on their ill-gotten wealth and sleeps like a baby at night over their dirty stuffs... while other people lives paycheck by paycheck... zzzZZZZzzz