Spilled Beans

Love while you can...

2012-01-28T16:39:00.007+08:00

Alfonso Flores January 1950 - January 2012 (61 y/o)

Job 34:15 all mankind would perish together and man would return to the dust.

Whenever I watch television and see people talk about their loved ones who passed away saying, "..Love them while they are alive and while you can.." , I didn't feel the weight and the meaning of this cliches, until my father passed away.

He died singing some videoke song. Fell down.
In a matter of 20 minutes, God took my father. Dead on arrival. Cardiac arrest.
I didn't make it to the hospital.
He is already inside the coffin. Dead, when I arrived home from work.
He didn't make it 3 days before his 62nd birthday.

I felt blank, numb and speechless.
Lucky are my mom, sister, neighbors who saw him and hugged him on his last minute.

It was then I realized, life is not in our hands. God will take it away whenever, wherever.
I loved my father more than he ever know, we have forgiven each other spiritually and God knows that, but now.. I can't even make him a cup of coffee. Too late.

All the people who visit him to say condolences has same thing to say.. that My father is so kind and friendly, that is why they say God took him at very young age.

No words can explain how I feel of losing a father. No words can comfort us.
We get our strength from the inspirational messages of our relatives and friends to survive each passing day.

So, to all you guys, cherish every moment with your love ones. For life is short for angst and misunderstandings. Forgive who did you wrong. Love while you can. Love while they can feel it.

I love you Papa.
If I will be asked to pick a Dad on my next life. It will still be you Papa.
and Papa Please save a seat for me, where you are.. for in time we'll see each other again, till then please look over us, your family...

I know our Lord Almighty and the angels are now guiding you safely on your travel. We love you Papa... :-)

SANA...

2011-12-05T08:38:00.001+08:00

....sana magising ako isang araw na sabihan ako ng mga parents ni Louie...

"YOU PASSED THE TEST IHA, MAYAMAN TALAGA KAMI, HINDI KAMI AVERAGE CITIZEN LANG. GINAWA LANG NAMIN YUN, PARA MAKILALA NAMIN ANG TUNAY NA BABAENG MAGMAMAHAL SA ANAK NAMIN, SA KAHIRAPAN MAN O KAGINHAWAAN."

...syempre, pangarap ko lang yan, kaya weweirduhan ko na...parang sa mga koreanovela, kunwari average pero prinsipe pala...
...hindi naman sa mukha akong pera, pero pakiramdam ko may hangganan lahat...
...sana hindi ko pagsisihan ang magiging desisyon ko.
...please guide me Lord...

Happiness... indeed.

2011-09-25T16:53:00.002+08:00

Ang sabi nila it's hard to find happiness sa panahon ngayon.

Image

Pero kung ikaw ang dahilan ng kasiyahan ng isang tao, puputulin mo ba ang kaligayahang iyon?
Tatapusin mo ba ang mga araw na magkasama kayo , kung sa bawat araw at sandaling magkasama kayo ay ipinagpapasalamat Niya dahil kasama ka niya?

Ang sagot ko?

Hindi.
becozzz .. It is Only now, and with Him, that I have something I can call MINE.

-pakornihan at senti mode muna. pangtanggal stress ko.

Farewell Adult Friendfinder Account

2011-09-21T14:09:00.003+08:00

Nalulungkot ako!!!!
Hindi na nagrenew and Friendfinder Account sa TRG.
Kaya sa India or Malaysia na lang daw sila mag ta-transfer ng site. (AFF)

Reason for pulling out of AFF:

Binabarat daw ng AFF client ang TRG para sa renewal fee.
Syempre hindi naman papayag ang TRG na baratin kami, dahil ano nga naman papasweldo ng TRG sa agents kung binabarat kami ng AFF.

Kaya eto, pulled out ang FF Account sa TRG effective October 15,2011
Lipat daw kami ng Norsthstar, AT&T or isa pang eklavu account dito sa TRG.

At bayad parin daw kami til "we move in to a new account".
(dapat lang bayad, dahil if not, mas malaki babayaran nila pag ni-lay off nila kami.)

Pero sa Friday, punta ko ng Robinsons Pioneer.
Interview for Accenture (CSR/TSR) daw. ~papapresyo lang, if the price is right, then Gow ang beauty ko, if not, TRG parin til Christmas. Sayang ang 13th month alam mo yan!

So long for AFF.

Good vibes sana!

:)

Unfortunately...

2011-08-13T18:31:00.002+08:00

One day , I was looking at my things and they looked slightly used.
My shoes, my bags, my phones.

I always feel like always wanted to buy something new to replace the old thingees I have.

I've always wanted all the fashion trendy clothes, bags, shoes, that I always passed by on a window shopping.

Until I saw an old woman. Who rode the jeepney, guided by a little girl as her companion.

The old lady is blind, literally have no eyes. Her eyelids closed.

She often wipes her eyelids, because of some moist.

Raising her brows from time to time, just to stretch the closed eyelids.

She was tightly holding the jeep arm rest, probably the only assurance that she can still do something "normal" like other people do.

Suddenly I thought of all the tantrums I've had for not having all the trendy, and most fashionable things under the sun that I've been dreaming of, while this old woman, only sees darkness, black.

Someone who won't ever see the sun, moon, stars anymore for the rest of her life.. while, I.. complain of seeing what I see and the materials things I can't have.

It suddenly came to my realization, in order for us to be happy. Never look up, cause there will always be someone, greater than us. Instead, look down... there is always someone more needy than us.

Let's appreciate what we have. Share if we have more than enough.

Love the (unique) life God has given us.

Good evening to everyone.

Someday it will happen to you...

2011-08-11T22:01:00.006+08:00

I don't know how or where to start, but life really surprises me.

One day I woke up and checked my online banking website, to my surprise all my cards ( ATM, Credit Card, Savings) were showing P0.00 balance.

I missed two (2) payments of my monthly auto loan, which resulted to a penalty of P7,000.oo plus + + the two (2) monthly fee I need to pay.

But all of these obstacles, I surpassed through prayers, and having strong faith that I am bigger and stronger than my problems.........Woah! :)

And furthermore............

I am currently in a relationship, which is really opposite of what I dreamed of when I was a little girl.

Me and my Boyfriend:

We don't eat in a luxurious restaurant.
We wait for movies in DVD instead of watching in bigscreen.
We don't sleep in luxurious hotels.
We don't travel in a very expensive out of town spots.
We don't have a car to use whenever we go out.
We don't have expensive clothes to give each other as gifts like other couple/s do.

I don't have the prince charming who rides a Mercedez Benz to fetch or drive me home.
My boyfriend doesn't have the sexiest woman that shows on the cover of the magazines.

But we share the laughter, the jokes, the hugs, the fights, the make-ups... that I never thought I would go through.

I don't have the fairy-tale relationship that I wished for, years ago, but this reality, is way better than what I dreamed of.

If one day we'll wake up that what we have in life is not what we wanted, it's only a reminder that.. if God doesn't give us what we want, he will definitely give us what we only Need.

Have a blessed day to all.
:-)

Why?

2011-08-03T20:42:00.002+08:00

One late afternoon, I passed by a granny about 80 years of age sitting on her knee high chair, with a basket of veggies on her lap. She doesn't even look like selling, she was just looking at the passersby walking to and fro in front of her. At her age I'm not sure if she can even say "bili na kayo..."

...A granny, instead of lying on her bed or doing some cross stitch... is still obliged to sit on the sidewalk for a small amount of money at the end of the day...

PS: I think I should stop posting about life's socio economic status related blogs... If I can't do anything about it... But I can't help it.... it really breaks my heart to think that the government officials lies on their ill-gotten wealth and sleeps like a baby at night over their dirty stuffs... while other people lives paycheck by paycheck... zzzZZZZzzz

Our 8th Month...

2011-07-01T14:17:00.001+08:00

Ghrace and Louie
( June 2011 )

We live each passing day with laughter, hugs and kisses.

We fight, as others couple do, but at the end of the day we always say the magic word, Sorry.

A little celebration means a lot to us.

Thanks to our friends who stay with us if we need advice and whenever we celebrate good times.

I LOVE YOU Bebeb KO.... :)

Heartfelt...

2011-06-19T15:19:00.004+08:00

One early rainy morning, I took a jeep on my way to the office.

The barker who usually rides at the back and call for passengers, are kids or teenager...

but this morning was different because the barker was an old, skinny man, roughly 40-50 years old.

The rain wasn't so hard, but it still drips his hair, and makes him wipe the droplets of raindrops from his face from time to time. His jacket is only a bit of help to give warmth to his skinny built.

It's heartbreaking to think that the hierarchy in this life creates inequality in our society. Sure it does.
Some rich men sits on their very comfy couch, waiting for their coffee to be served by their servants.

while an average man at his old age needed to work hard even if it sacrifice their health just to live and survive.

At that moment, I remembered my father, and thanked him in my mind.
To all the sons and daughters, take time to hug and show your love to your father, for life is too short, who knows when they will be taken?

....So while we still have the moment, let's make the most of it.

Even a cup of coffee will melt their heart, especially if it was made by their beloved son or daughter.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL THE PAPS!

Need A Laugh?

2011-06-19T14:33:00.000+08:00

There once was a man -- not a jerk,

Who figured his lines didn't work.

He'd charm and he'd beg,

He'd hump her poor leg,

But the truth is she wanted to lurk.

____________________________________

Whenever she sneezed she would cum,

Especially when stuffing her bum.

She needed no men

To do it again.

Just pepper her nose and her thumb!

(buharharhar!! :))

Update your Facebook status VIA...

2011-06-12T21:09:00.009+08:00

Hi, guys...

Want to update your Facebook status Via: (funny apps or any apps?)

Go to: http://funnyfacebook.org/

and do these steps... (don't worry, it's a one time register: email address and password. NOTE: use a dummy email address if you're in doubt).

Just make any username and password for this site, remember what you registered, in case it asked you to login again to check out more apps/Status VIA apps.

It will need you to sync your FB login to this site. It will ask you to sign in using your FB email address and FB password.

It's a SAFE site. Don't Worry. I've used it already, and it was fun faking my status VIA... (ricecooker, Android) (Hehehe)

Step 1. Register (email address and password)

Step 2. Search for any apps/ via software status you want.

Step 3. search more apps

Step 4 & 5. Post your status , to your wall or to your friend's wall

Step 6. Type your status/wall message

Step 7. Publish

Life isn't that bad at all... cheer up! :)

2011-05-18T00:16:00.002+08:00

Sunrise makes you feel that you can always do better today...

if you failed yesterday.

I don't know why it feels good whenever I see sunrise and sunsets. It's a different feeling looking at the fading colors and shades of this creation...

The Other Side of Me

2011-04-29T05:54:00.002+08:00

So, yes, I do love making my friends made up.
I am a frustrated make up artist and hairstylist combined. hehehe.

Since I don't have my own salon. Hahaha. (Asa)
I do my stuffs for my friends, mostly at our apartment. (Then drinking beer -as their 'voluntary' payment after each make overs). :))

Lately I find it boring to do make ups only, so I thought of doing haircut for my friends too.
Here's some. Most of it are posted on my Facebook only.
(Acknowledged Photo subjetcs)

The happiest part is getting commended by the people and their friends, who loved what I did to them.

These are the things I would never get tired of doing.
Making people smile and loving their reflection at the mirror, and telling me how I did well.

When the Candlelight starts to flicker...

2011-04-09T13:40:00.001+08:00

...it doesn't means light's gonna be out. It only means there's a strong wind blowing it and so it flickers.

Year 2011 have been very bouncy, rocky and shaky for me. I don't believe in Zodiac and moon conflicts cause I know for a fact that this have got nothing to do with the humps along the way.

When things gets flaky, we need to be awake, alert and also clean surrounding helps.
When I am confused and disturbed by something- financial, love life, family problems...- ...I clean up my room, my corner, my cabinet, that's one thing I do, to be able to think positively, helps me come up with brilliant decisions, options and reflect positively on things that may seem hazy.

So, being awake as well, means to keep talking to your friends, like anything under the sun, anything about food, work, love life. Spontaneous exchange of opinions, avoids idle mind -haven of evil.

Last but not the least. Prayers.
No matter how busy a person may be, there will always come a time in his life that he will pause for a moment of silence and sincerely talk to God to ask for help.

Prayer. A very powerful tool to keep your sanity in tact.
It gives you goose bumps when your prayer is (always) answered. If not, it doesn't mean it is not meant to happen...
It just means, not Now.

2nd Company I tried...

2011-02-08T21:43:00.001+08:00


TRG. Hanston Bld. Emerald Ave.

As usual One day hiring process ang companyng ito.
I came at 3:00pm and went home 11:00pm.
Not to mention, J.O. was 8:00am the following day. *wtf.

Initial interview - panel interview. 10 person every panel batch. May dalawang inglisan ng inglisan. Sige na kayo na ex-call center agent. haist.

Technical exam - 1 1/2 hour.

        Listening skills (Audio and multiple choice type)
        Typing skills na kamalas-malasang sira ang spacebar ng keyboard na napwestuhan ko. Tsk tsk.
        (luckily I still passed the "required" 38-45 wpm *wink)

Behavioral Interview - One on One with Attitchuderang Interviewer.

         Interviewer: Is that really the way you talk?
         Me:              Yes.. ( Ano sa tingin mo? joke to??! ) Why?
         Interviewer:    Are you really that soft-spoken?
         Me:                ( Gusto ko sagutin na, it's not how fast or how slow a person talks, it's how clearly you understand every consonant and vowel that will come out of his mouth. Ako nga paragraph and kinocompose ko sa utak ko, and deliver it. Eh siya, malamang, she's been asking the same recruitment questions over and over kaya siguro feeling niya that makes her speak English fluently. Tse!!! tigilan nga niya ako. Hehehe.

Final Interview - Passed
J.O.                   - Signed
Salary               - Unfortunately, they can only give me the same basic pay I had with Ttech. Not bad because TRG have yearly appraisal, that my previous employer CAN'T AND WON'T ever OFFER.Dahil sa kakuriputan nila.

Aight. So... bummy days over. Paulit-ulit na Meet and Greet , here I come!
I pray that I will meet a lot of honest and can be trusted friends. Adjust. Adjust. to a new environment.

May new love life kaya? Charot!

:D

It's been a while...

2011-01-26T02:11:00.006+08:00

...since I had a "real job interview" after 6 years..

my applicant id.. sosyal.. we don't have this in TTech..


the view from Sutherland's ( Kalayaan Ave The Fort ) 12th floor smoking area.. just 5 steps away from their reception/lobby area..

So, after the interviewer glanced at my CV, I was expecting a very perky perky conversation and question and answer portion from her.
But I think I expected too much. Hehehe. She said.. "You have an experience at BPO. I can see that in your CV."

I'm not sure if it's a question or not so I just said "Yes."
And then I expected the technical questions to follow.

But I was wrong again.
She told me.. "I won't ask you any further questions. We'll be assigning you to a Non-voice account."

This is freaking weird I thought. I mean, I wanted to tell her, "can you please ask me more? come on!"
LOL.

The recruitment process went well.
But then again, I wanted to try 2-3 more companies, just so I have options.. hopefully I'll end up with the smartest choice..

I can't...

2011-01-18T05:08:00.000+08:00

No matter how many misfortunes and bad luck(s) I have experienced since day one of 2011, I just can't use the word "Ang malas ko naman." I don't know, maybe for me "malas" is a very negative word to use. Parang ang lakas maka negative vibes. Sino ba kasi naka imbento ng salitang iyan. Biset.

I think hindi lang ako ang nag-iisip, na everything happens for a reason. (feeling ko Motto yata ito lahat ng mga taga call center? LOL)

Anyways, there's always a rainbow after the rain.
Truth always prevail.

Sa mga naninira sa akin, hindi ko man sila kilala masyado.. naaawa ako sa kanila. Hindi ko alam kung saan nila hinuhugot ang ganitong negative energy.

I promise I'll be patient and will always be forgiving.
Lalo na kung alam kong malinis ang konsensya ko at wala akong tinatapakang damdamin ng ibang tao.

Need a break..

2011-01-09T00:10:00.003+08:00

Ako'y mamamaalam muna pansamantala sa aking FB account.
Nawa'y makatulong ito para mabawasan ang mga intriga at hindi magagandang nagaganap sa buhay ko ngayon.

formspring.me

2011-01-04T14:42:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/ghwacey

Now Signing off...

2011-01-01T17:03:00.000+08:00

Goodbye TELETECH.
6 years and 5 months.. of being with my 2nd home.

"..Again, my name is Grace, have a nice day!"
( I will be posting my 'real' goodbye blog soon.)

Old wind chime.

2010-12-29T22:21:00.002+08:00

This wind chime catched my attention.
I thought it says "please wait to be seated." LOL

I never noticed this was hanging outside our front door. So oldie with the 2 left wind chimes and the dust on it. I love the detail on the thing, the roof, the door, it's so miniature of a restroom.

I wanted to visit some antique shops and vintage stores. But I guess items sold there are quite pricey.

Every first, counts..... definitely worth remembering....

2010-12-24T22:25:00.005+08:00

NO CAPTIONS NEEDED. PHOTOS SAYS IT ALL... ♥♥♥

( I lied. Imma put 'em captions hehe..)

Our petite choco mousse cake. and a little blue candle symbolizes warmth of our love.. (Echos!) pero true yan hehe. I can't forget his reaction when I took out the candle.. parang he was so speechless and he just hugged me very tight. :)

Okay. Yep, I know right hehe, No big deal , it's just our first month together. But I'm happy that it's our first Monthsary, first Christmas together and first New Year (on 2011). =)

Quality time ... alone..

2010-12-22T15:18:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, it's nice to spend the whole day, alone.

A bus ride alone.

A lunch alone.

You get to think of things that you need to reflect with.
Reminisce and smile, thinking how you're lucky to have family and friends and loviedubs, who gives you reason to wake up each day..

So get time to catch up with yourself. Who knows, yourself already misses you.

Pricey but Yummy

2010-12-15T15:34:00.005+08:00

December 14, 2010

So it's my last day of shift and what's the best thing to do? Food trip!
( Now, I won't be surprised if everyone tells me my face is some kind of getting lumpy or should I say big time. Kasi wala akong ginawa lately but to Eat. Eat. and Eat. )

Located at U.P. Diliman premises

for another appetizer Caesar Salad in yummy garlic dressing @ P175.oo


And the main course Garlic and mushroom in Olive Oil with bacon bits, black olives and some chillis. @ P200.oo THE rest are also my shots using Helen's classic Sony Cybershot cam. Kayo na bahala umisip kung magkano presyo nitong mga main dish. Yung appetizer palang mahalia mendez na, what more itong mga main course na inorder ng mga kasama ko. :) MANGAN!

( I don't know about you guys who tried this place, but mind you they don't have big servings.
Unlike other pricey restos, Chocolate Kiss dishes is good for one person only ).. Kasi di ba minsan you want to share your food with a friend or hati nalang kayo kasi nga medyo mahal, in this case, hehe pang solo order/ person lang tlga. So I think first and last na punta ko na 'to dito.

Sana...

2010-12-02T14:58:00.001+08:00

Sana.......ang buhay pag-ibig ay parang buhay lang sa probinsya.

...Sabay niyong pagmamasdan ang pagsikat at paglubog ng araw. Sabay kayong kakain ng almusal, tanghalian at hapunan. Maiidlip sa tanghali kapag inantok.

Manonood ng t.v. pag naiinip.
Maghaharutan sa balkonahe.

Shot ng kaunting beer kapag hindi pa inaantok.
Sabay kayong mangangarap ng mga bagay na nais maabot.

Will share the laughter that turns to burst giggles until you can’t breathe anymore.
Will kiss each other kapag commercial break ang favorite t.v. show.
Wipe each other lips after drinking from the glass.

Sabay kayong lalabas to watch a full moon with a star over it.
Sana ganito lang kadali magmahal. Walang balakid sa paligid. Walang kontrabida.
Walang problema sa pera. Walang problema sa time.

Ang sarap siguro ng buhay, kapag ganito lang kadali magmahal.

Current Mood

2010-11-24T23:32:00.000+08:00

~~~ Walang kokontra. Minsan lang ako maging "prinsesa". Moment ko to. Ahihihi.

INK 2

2010-11-18T08:38:00.002+08:00

I now have my tattoo layout for my next ink. I'm so excited! :))
I wanted to post the photo, but on second thought, I'll just post it once it's inked on me.

LOL on this photo! ;p

Source

Deja Vu

2010-11-18T08:27:00.003+08:00

I'm always caught in the middle.
I like a guy(Guy A)... , but his friend (Guy B).. was the first one to made the first move of saying I'm cool.

Source

In the end, I will entertain the Guy B to keep my connection with Guy A.
Weird is they invited me to have lunch at the same day and time, next week.

So, help me God. ;(

Si Lola G-Liner

2010-10-26T18:56:00.002+08:00

11:00 AM
10/26/2010
Pauwi ako ng Valenzuela.
From Junction Robinson's Galleria. G-liner Bus. Quiapo signboard.
.
May matandang babae sa 2nd row sa right side so, I decided to sit there.
At take note. May blush on ang lola mo. Hehehe.

"Anong oras na apo?"
Kinuha ko ung cellphone ko. Wala kasi akong relo kanina.
11:30 am na po.

"Ah okey, salamat ha."

"Dalawa anak kong lalaki."
"Sampu ang apo ko puro lalaki. Kaya natutuwa ako sa'yo, lalo na pag may nakakausap akong batang babae sa biyahe, kasi wala akong makausap na babae sa bahay."

Ah.. ganun po ba.

"Oo. Pulis ung panganay ko."
"Dalawa anak kong lalaki."
"Sampu ang apo ko puro lalaki. Kaya natutuwa ako sa'yo, lalo na pag may nakakausap akong batang babae sa biyahe, kasi wala akong makausap na babae sa bahay."
Ah okey po. Hehehe.

"Di ka ba naiinitan jan?"
Ah hindi naman po.

"Mahaba ang buhok ko noong dalaga ako."
"Ngayon tumigil na sa paghaba."

-Napapatingin ako minsan sa blush on niya habang nagsasalita siya, kasi yung eyeshadow niya, yun din ung pinang-blush on niya. :)

"Pulis ung panganay ko."
"Dalawa anak kong lalaki."
"Sampu ang apo ko puro lalaki. Kaya natutuwa ako sa'yo, lalo na pag may nakakausap akong batang babae sa biyahe, kasi wala akong makausap na babae sa bahay."

Sa ruta mula Junction to Robinson's Galleria. Feeling close si Lola sa akin.
At kung mapapansin niyo. Copy Paste ang mga huling conversation.

Kasi sa tatlong topic lang na ito umikot ang pag chika ni Lola sa akin.

1. Natutuwa siya na may katabi siyang babaeng pasahero to talk to.
2. Sampu ang mga apo niya at puro lalaki.
at pangatlo.. Mahaba ang buhok niya noong dalaga siya.

-Bang kulet ni Lola. Hehehe. Pero parang siya yung yumaong Lola ko, amoy pulbos ng matanda. Hindi amoy araw. ;)

"Malapit ka nang bumaba, iha."
Ay Opo, kayo po saan bababa?

"Naku, sa Quiapo pa ako. May free food serving session kami doon at magsisimba ako ng 4pm pagkatapos."
Wow. Sige po, bababa na ako.

"Oh sige apo, mag-iingat ka."
"Ingatan mo ang Nanay mo ha?"

Sabay pagtayo ko para bumaba, binitiwan niya yung huling sentence. "Ingatan mo ang Nanay mo ha?"
OPO lang ang naisagot ko.

Opo, sige po, ingat po kayo.

Natuwa ako sa huling sinabi niya.
A stranger asking me to take care of my Mom. Weird but nice.

To take care of the people around us. People we love. People who loves us.

Just for FUN

2010-09-19T01:41:00.000+08:00

The Website: http://www.formspring.me/ghwacey

The Catch: You don't need to sign in before you post anything. Anonymous. Ghost. Whatever it's called!

The Fun: Ask me anything, tell me secrets, tell me something I dont know yet. Confess? Hatred? Nice and Not so nice comments are all welcome. Why? 'Cause I don't even know who and where the hell comments would come from! Fun, right?

I'm sure you'll create and sign up for a Formspring account once you get the weird feeling of answering questions like I've had! Kakatawa lang ung ibang question, kakaloka!

One of a kind sugar rush-like experience...

2010-07-31T14:00:00.005+08:00

Need I say more?

Yep, I did.

..TOLD YAH!!!

2010-07-19T10:38:00.008+08:00

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I'm trying ...

2010-06-11T20:38:00.003+08:00

I was on my way home, when I saw the visual on a bookstore's entrance.

It says in Bold CAPITAL letters,

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY
June 20, 2010

Deadma.

As I walk by the streets and sees a father and a daughter, walking, shopping together, dining together, talks about heart matters..what the??

I don't know if by any chance destiny is making fun of me, or wants me to envy these people, and slap my face saying that "hey, we're close to our dads.."

Yeah right.Whatever.

To make the story short. I respect my father, but I am not close to him, unfortunately not as close and as sweet as how a typical Filipino movie portraits to the audience.

So.... Father's day would be on the 20th. My sisters will (again) force me to call my father overseas and will ask me to greet him "A supposedly sweet Happy Father's Day" , which I will do, or else my sisters will look at me as the "Kontrabida" again.

I guess this is the dilemma of my dad, leaving me when I was only 8 months old

(and my 3 older sisters too) to unfortunately work abroad..He came back then for a vacation when I was 4 year old that time.

Accdg to my mom, He attempted to hug and tell me "Ako ang Papa mo.."

And I said (daw) accdg to my Mom,

"Hindi, Hindi ikaw Papa ko, sinusundo pa namin sa Airport ang Papa ko.."

Sad as it is, he was going back and forth to abroad as I was growing up, during the time when I was learning my ABC...

He was not there when I was bullied by my seatmates.

I don't see his smiles whenever I receive medals for the contests I've won.

When, a guy courted me the first time and he wasn't around to answer my questions about why boys court girls...

My mother would always be the one who does all of these while he wasn't around.

I'm still not sure when he will quit his work. But one thing's for sure, soon his physique won't allow him to overdo things. Yes, He is at his 65's. And as we all know, is the typical retirement age.

(I don't think if these things affected my future plan about having family.. But because of these, I will never let my future husband work abroad or anywhere far from me. We will laugh, suffer, enjoy things together, I will never ever let money be the reason to separate me from my husband..I wouldn't want this coldness-to-father/parents-thing I feel right now , happen to my children). Ever.

Never fail to amuse me...

2010-06-01T12:45:00.000+08:00

Nature.

Nagsasa Cove , Zambales

I wish I could live here. Play all day and still get paid. *Sigh*

But despite the lovely place, I swear I can't deny the fact that I can't stand a No Electricity, no gadget, away from technology place.

Looking for Me....

2010-05-08T16:29:00.003+08:00

Just watched John Lloyd & Bea's Miss You like Crazy.

"...Lahat ng bagay pwedeng madaliin, but never love. Kasi ang Love has its own right timing.." (Mang Temmy - caretaker)

Kilig factor for almost half of the film, but the reality that love isn't always fun was there at same time.

From now on, I will not think that I am waiting for my "August" but instead... He's out there looking for me..

He knows me well..

2010-04-20T15:58:00.001+08:00

Si Bro talaga, alam na alam kung anong weakness ko.

Kapag masaya ako, laging nawawala rin agad ang dahilan ng kasiyahan ko. Binabawi niya agad na para bang, huwag akong masyadong magpakasaya. Naalala ko tuloy ang isa sa mga nabasa kong quote sa isang fanpage, "Being a good person to other people doesn't guarantee life will treat you good."

Minsan tuloy sa dami ng iniisip kong mga misfortunes ko, nagiging mababaw na ang kaligayahan ko. Minsan nalang kasi yata ako ngumiti ng talagang masaya ko. Minsan kahit ako , nag eecho sa sarili ko, na ang plastik ng tawa ko. Hindi ko na yata maalala kung kailan ako napangiti ng isang sorpresa or ng isang taong nagpabuo ng araw ko. Palaging ako yung nagpapangiti sa mga tao, pero ako, hindi ako makangiti ng totoo sa sarili ko. Puro ako payo sa mga kaibigan ko na "ayos lang yan",, "Kaya pa yan,,," pero ako, hindi ko mapayuhan ang sarili ko, Para bang walang nakakaramdam na may problema rin ako.

Minsan naguguilty ako pag hindi ako nakakapag simba , pero minsan kasi parang naiiyak ako minsan sa Homily , laging minsan patama talaga sa akin, mukha akong tanga na sumisinghot mag isa sa church, kasi naiiyak ako sa sermon ng Pari, minsan naman, nahihiya rin ako magsimba dahil feeling ko napaka"sinner" ko at puro hinanakit lang ang magiging confession ko. (no worries... this doesn't shake a bit of my spiritual view, tampururot lang ako..I still go & attends Mass whenever possible =] )

Sabi ko sa sarili ko, hindi naman napakalaking bagay ng mga hinihiling ko pero bakit parang ang tagal ibigay ni Lord. Mabuti pa yung ibang tao kahit napaka sama ng ugali, they get what they want and what they wish for, in a snap. Pero yung mga mas deserving , sila yung mga deprived.

I sometimes pray,, "..Lord this time I wanted to wish something for myself, kasi minsan puro sa family at friends ko yung prayers ko.." one time sabi ko, "..Lord, one time lang about sa akin naman po this time.." Kaso parang the more I pray for "it" to happen, parang lalong tumatagal ung pag grant.

Ang lungkot talaga pag ready ka na sa isang bagay pero, yung "moment" hindi pa ready para sa iyo. Parang laging may kulang when you are expecting something to become a reality and yet it's "still in the making."

Napaka vulnerable kong tao pag pamilya at puso ang involved. Napaka simple at napakababaw lang ng mga bagay na nakakapag pangiti sa kin. Pero, when people crush and tear me into pieces, parang akala siguro nila super tapang ko, at hindi ako marunong madurog.. I usually pretend to be strong and toughie, pero minsan ang hirap na talagang tumawa at ngumiti sa joke time ng mga kaibigan ko, lalo na ngayon kapag magulo ang utak ko. Napaka ordinaryo kong tao para pagtripan ng tadhana ng bigtime na problema.

Sinasabi ko minsan kay Lord, na ganito lang ako, mukha akong maldita, mukha akong matapang, pero Lord
napaka nipis lang ng emosyon ko, im still your little girlie,, minsan hindi ko na po kaya ung mga emotional disturbance na binibigay niyo...(recently)

Minsan pag kumakain ako, hindi ko na nalalasahan ung kinakain ko, kumakain nalang ako kasi kumukulo na tiyan ko. Minsan natutulog ako hindi dahil sa antok, kundi pinapagod ko ung katawan ko sa paglilinis, paglalaba, hanggang kusa na lang pumikit yung mata ko, para lang makatulog. (Sana malagpasan ko rin to.)

Dati sabi ko, sa dami ng mga hardships na nalagpasan ko (with flying colors) ...sabi ko, wala na sigurong makakapagpaiyak sa akin, because I've gotten strong... But here I go again, same crybaby, having the same old question, Why me...

Meaning?

2010-03-19T00:25:00.001+08:00

...

Spark. Magic. Unexplainable
Lust doesn't exists in my dictionary.

I call it MAGIC.
Being interested with someone, you've known and met for a day.

You 'could' feel that magic from a person, regardless of being totally strangers.

Now...
Imagine what & how would it feel, if you find MAGIC & True Love from one Person, who will promise you forever.

Worth waiting isn't it?
Whenever I feel like tired of waiting, there's this one quote that always echoes in my heart......

......" Love will find you, in the right place, in the right time."

source

Some good things (for me..hehe) never lasts...

2010-03-10T12:07:00.009+08:00

WARNING :

Medyo nakakadiri ang ibang larawan. Char!

Kaya kung kumakain ka, itigil mo muna.

(You can click on some of the Images, for larger size)

OCTOBER 16, 2009

The time has come to officially let go of it, last Feb. 25, 2009.

I won't be deprived of sleeping on (only) one, the right side of my body angle.

Gone are the days, when my peers get so excited of hugging me and bumping to my pierce, and the powerful One word from me.. "F*cK!" scares them away to death.

And most of all no more hassle during sexy time. (hihihi)

It has been a memorable experience having this foreign object on my face, something that others were so afraid of doing.

If you have plans of getting pierced, visit the link below, for helpful tips.

An overview and general information about Infected Piercing or Rejecting Piercing ...
Proper after-care and warning tips from this site ..

Da Gate & Decades Metrowalk...

2010-03-02T16:22:00.005+08:00

..places, that became a part and instrument to the most important "stage" in my life. The ending wasn't so ideal, but will be remembered..

It was just recently, that I've proven something right, dumarating "sila" sa mga panahon at lugar na hindi mo inaasahan.

These are the places I won't forget, everr.

For once (or twice) I've decided something for myself, without the comfort of asking approval from other people. No matter what the outcome will be, I will blame no one, for sure.

Suddenly, the word "existence" had a meaning in my dictionary.

Habang Atin Ang Gabi

2010-02-18T10:20:00.003+08:00

I remember the music video of Regine Velasquez and Richard Gomez about the Southborder Original ; Habang Atin Ang Gabi - I'm not sure if it's in Youtube.

( other related song ;;;; Love in this Club by Usher & Beyonce )

[Beyoncé]
I know you want it (yeah)
I'm hestitating (why)
You must be crazy
I got a man, you got a lady

[Usher]
I know we here together
So this must be something special
You could be anywhere you wanted

[Pre-Chorus: Usher]
But you decided to be here with me
No coincidence
It was meant to be
Don't be shy
Don't let your boy get in
So you can tell of all your friends
You was on the remix like...

Sa panahon ngayon, madalas na kayang nangyayari ito?

Minsan natatanong ko sa sarili ko kung puwede ba talaga mangyari,,,,, yung pers taym mo lang makita ang isang tao at L na L ka agad at hahantong sa Sex nang araw lang na iyon (at hindi na masusundan, dahil ni hindi mo naman pala alam ang bahay o kahit ang pangalan niya)? Hahaha. Nakakatawa pero parang posible,,,, lalo na sa mga current American series,,, na madalas ang mga ganitong eksena.
Hindi na rin siguro imposible dito sa Pilipinas, sa totoong buhay.

After office hours, habang nasa Starbucks kami ng officemate ko (Shiela), natanong ko siya kung,,,, lahat ba ng nanonood ng sine ay nagpu-poom-poom after nila manood ng movie?
Sabi niya, hindi naman daw lahat, kasi she usually watch movies daw with his boy team mates and they don't do such. Ang sabi ko naman, friend mo kasi iyong mga iyon.

Para kasing sa panahon ngayon, Dine-Movie-Sex lang ang naiisip kong kayang gawin ng mga lalaki sa mga Girlfriend nila.
Parang wala na iyung mga park scenes, resto type na casual dinner, iyung usap lang talaga.
Siguro extinct na sila at nasa Avilon Zoo na....,,,,,, kinu-Culture pa ulit para dumami.

Nga pala, napapraning ang Nanay ko sa mga balitang naririnig niya sa Ch2 at Ch7 , about HIV and STD na kumakalat sa mga BPO companies.

Sabi ko naninira lang sila, kasi maliliit ang suweldo nila.
Hellurrrr,,,tigilan nga nila ako.... Dahil mas marami pa ngang immoral at talamak na nagkakabitan sa mga Government offices. (Well , hindi ko naman nilalahat ang public employees,, yan naman ay opinyon lang at ayon sa experience ng Ex-Public servant na kateam mate ko ngayon.)

Samantala, sa dami ng nagkalat na motels ngayon, with matching iba't-ibang caption, "mas pinalinis, mas pinalaki, mas pinabango", talagang hindi na yata maiwasan,,,,,, na sa isang iglap, pagkatapos ng malulupit na inuman ,,,,,, sa isang kibot ng chorva,,,. eh sa Motel ang punta, halos magkakalapit pa nga ang iba.

At ang isa nga, (Sogo) sa baba pa ng MRT North stairs,,,, facing the road pa ang ENTRANCE door. Saan ka pa? As in "...Helloooo mga taooooo..... Im here,,,, papasok ako sa Motel !!"
Wala man lang privacy or side door Entrance, astig talaga, nagpapatawa yata ung engineer ng building nun eh.. ( ...ito naman ay comment ko lang, wala akong balak i-try iyang branch nilang yan.)

Sa mga lalaki at babae ng kasalukuyang panahon, hindi na siguro imposibleng mangyari ito. Lalo na kung pareho nilang naramdaman ang dapat maramdaman sa araw or sa gabing iyon (pati dito may timezone).

Hindi mo ginawa iyon dahil may nag-utos or may nagbuyo sa iyo, ang mahalaga ay free will at walang pumilit sinyong dalawa. You (have) enjoyed every minute and every sweat you had. (Made sure to) Be safe. And exchange names before you do it.

Saved from Chaos

2010-02-04T10:34:00.004+08:00

May isang Girl - 3 anak - 2 (magkaiba) Tatay ng mga anak niya
May isang Boy - 1 anak - isang Asawa - 5 ang Babae (Other woman)
May *2nd Girl - Single - friend ni Girl at text mate ni Boy

Si Girl may gusto kay Boy. Si Boy hinaharot at finiflirt si 2nd Girl.
Si 2nd Girl muntik na ma attract at ma-develop kay Boy.

Buti na lang , may "nangyari" kay Girl and Boy.
Na turned-off si 2nd Girl kay Boy at Girl.

Ang ending , Na-saved in disguise si 2nd Girl , sa kapahamakan at kapariwaraan.

*ghwace

Hanggang Kailan Naman?

2010-01-21T02:49:00.000+08:00

Naranasan mo na bang magpaubaya para sa isang kaibigan?
.. well , ako,, OO,, at hindi ako natutuwa!

me + friend = unsyaming lablayf

hay,,,,,,,ano??? ako nalang ba ang palaging magpapaubaya?
badtrip naman oh, hindi ako makadiskarte!!!
dahil ang prospect ko.. ay pinoprospect din ng aking kaibigan.

naku naman. talaga naman! lagi nalang akong nasusukuban.
Lagi nalang.

Wishlist - Wishless

2009-12-15T02:49:00.001+08:00

Mababaw pero, undescribable ung pagiging unfair ng monito/sender ng "wish" ko for the team party this year.

I have been a victim of this for 3 consecutive years now. Why do some people don't understand the meaning of granting a person's "WISH" from the WISHLIST?

I asked for a simple,.... napakasimpleng SILVERWORKSTM bracelet, thinking that they would never go wrong for a simple thing/wish like that.

Pero , anong natanggap ko?? Yung usong pang mga muslim na tiangge bracelet, na pekeng swarovski ung usong headband na pwede ring bracelet sa pagka chipipay. Take note. The Monito price is P500.oo
2pcs natanggap ko. eh kahit P70.oo isa nun kayang tawaran eh, so the most would be 200 in total. Ending? not even half of the price requirement.

Sabi pa niya, kung di ko raw gusto, okay lang daw, papalitan daw niya. Sino naman ako para sabihin sa mukha niya yo'n? di bah?

Nangibabaw parin ang pagiging makatao ko at sinabi kong, "..anukaba, okay naman toh eh.."

pero sa kalooban ko, gusto kong isigaw na::: "WALA BANG MALL SA INYO?? HINDI MO BA ALAM ANG BRAND NA SILVERWORKS???"

What the heck?? Hindi ko masyadong ka close ang taong ito, kaya eto, itatapon ko nalang ung natanggap ko from that person, i will never ever use it. In the first place that's not even close to 1% of my wish from the wishlist. Booboobiboo...

Ito na siguro huling pag wish ko sa mga wishlist.

Peperahin ko nalang talaga sa mga susunod na mga year ang mga Exchange gift giving!!!! +,+

(Pansin ko lang,, lagi akong galit sa mga entry ko.?) huhuhuhu.

there are some, breakable rules...

2009-11-30T20:11:00.000+08:00

here's one.............. ;)

Self-Pity mo, wala sa Lugar...

2009-11-23T22:56:00.003+08:00

To Her:

I have nothing against being Emotero/a. Pero sana naman ilagay mo sa lugar.
Okay lang naman ang maging ma-pride pero may exemptions, dahil hindi naman makakain yang Pride na iyan.

Hindi pang iinsulto, ang kusang loob na alukin ka ng pera o pagkain ng isang kaibigan , pero kung mamasamain mo iyon, well good luck na lang..

Libre iyon sa iyo, cause you're broke.
Pero ang ending, napasama pa, as if na-hurt buong pagkatao at pride mo.

Mahirap mag admit ng mistake lalo na pag alam kong wala naman akong masamang intensiyon, sa pagtulong sa ibang tao.

Hayyy.

Mag momoment Ako..

2009-11-02T14:53:00.003+08:00

".. sabi nga ni Bob Ong , if you keep interferring with other's destiny , you will never find yours."

Which leads to my confession about my pururut na crush ..Yun nga lang may anak na siya.. He's so ideal, but impossible. Unbelievable. Knocks me off my feet. I get so weak in the knees. Hayyss. I love the feeling, i Love being inspired....

Life Never fails to surprise me..

2009-10-06T13:55:00.003+08:00

..230 am na ang shift. basag.

..sun mon ang off. pwede. pwede.

..monthly bill na sa auto starting Oct. 20. basag ulet. ang savings.

..marunong na ko mag drive. may konting sablay lang, akalain mong nag reverse nung naka primera ako. buset.

..at ang kagulat-gulat part for me.

>>Emailed to Ops na.. -- I am a QA-Intern na, starting today.

Ay wow. Though hindi pa nagsisink-in sa akin hanggang ngayon.

Nahahati ang puso ko sa paghiwalay ko sa team ngayon.
Once I have my new QA sched, siguradong I won't see them as much as I do right now.

Hindi ko alam kung gusto ko talaga to, kasi mababawasan at mawawala ang ibang Client Bonuses at Allowances ko, once na umakyat ako ng Support Staff. Approximately 4k ang mawawala sa Monthly Pay ko.,as soon as ma-officialized na ang bago kong sched for QA Training.

Gayunpaman, kahit ano pa ang kapalit, I need to be positive about it.
This should be a start of a fun chapter/learning stage in my career as a callcenneremployee.

>> not for Facebook post.

Life's Full of Surprises

2009-09-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

This year have been a very busy, fun year for me.
I am very thankful to God for showering me with so many good friends.
Also, I feel so blessed and grateful.. for I have accomplished something valuable in my life.

Thanks Bro. ;)

My Baby is soon to Come...

2009-09-08T20:34:00.002+08:00

Red or Silver?

I wonder what should I name it?

Hmmm..... I'm excited and financially worried at the same time.

But taking risks, is what life's all about!

Not a Good Sign

2009-09-06T16:36:00.000+08:00

He never tell me what's happening.
He probably didn't need the feel to discuss it.
He probably thought that I'd understand, even if he didn't tell me.

But there are some things in life, that will only be understood through words.
I guess that's just how the way things are.
Guys convey things with actions, not words. So if it's something tough, they don't want others to have put up with it. They don't want to worry people either.

So they don't say it..

Btw.... Last week was the most gloomy week I had.
I feel no less than a child, bullied just for a taste of lollipop.
Helpless.

I Can Breathe Now..

2009-09-02T14:17:00.000+08:00

Finally, I got the replacement for the PSP of my sis. she gave it to me as a gift, last May of this year.
But, unfortunately, I sold it for something, I urgently needed to pay for.

I don't know if I had it as a best buy from a gadget store yesterday.
But what matters most is that , from now on, the good thing is, I won't have to make excuses, why I don't have the PSP with me, whenever I get home.

-p7500.00
-slim piano black
-8gb
-psp *2k6
-modified downloadable games

As an admitted Loner, I had to buy it myself.
And I realized that it wasn't easy buying something like this, without someone or a friend with you, to ask for opinion. :) Whew!

Sana hindi mabasa ng sis ko ito, otherwise, yari ako. Toink!

*edited

Ironic

2009-08-19T02:14:00.000+08:00

...Just when I'm 100% decided to avoid being (sooo) close with someone, As in kaya ko na mag-isa, without him around, taking breaks ahead of his break sched, not eating lunch with him and our friends.. eh saka naman babanat ng mga cheesy moments.

I don't know when and where to start ignoring this person..
or if I really could.

Other people think we're too cheesy to be friends. The chemistry is there. Mas mukha pa kaming mag jowa kesa sa 22o niyang jowa. (echos!)

I can't be like this forever, I don't believe in M.U. chorna anymore. It should be black or white. No gray areas.

Arrghhh. One more thing, I hate this day....
...I tried a phone interview through an automated system (one of a call center company too) and I think I failed, napaka nonsense naman kasi ng impromptu question ng recording.Nag buckle tuloy ako ng bongga, but it's okay.. It's a funny encounter with their faggot recording machine... ;>

Anyways, everything happens in the right place and time.

Have a cheesy day! ;)

Hates the Feeling

2009-08-11T23:46:00.000+08:00

... of being jealous. In all aspects, whether it be towards a friend, officemate or a special buddy.

Arrgh. It's something uncontrollable.

Found myself running to the Washroom.

Wiping off from my face, the only witness to my weakness. Tears.

There are times I wish to be an Anesthesiologist.

To create the most effective pain-killer drug. *my wishful thinking*

Current Mood

2009-07-21T17:54:00.000+08:00

It's sad that we can't have everything in this life.
Worst is, what you have is not even close to what you wish for.

Better Late than Never

2009-07-05T04:13:00.001+08:00

....One day before our off, inimbayt kami ng one of our guy friend sa office, sa isang inuman, (normally just to end the week shift before our offs).

Pumayag naman kami ng friend ko kasi last day of our week na rin.

Pagdating namin sa place, kilala na rin naman pala namin ang crowd. mga boylets na kateam ng aming guy friend.

Sila ang "mga kabataan" kung tawagin ko sa office. Kasi nga literal na mga bata pa, kung age ang pag-uusapan.

Before ending the night.

Na-appreciate ko ang mga binitiwan nilang salita towards us (me and my friend), na...

"...this day (inuman session) was the most fun we had, we regret na ngayon lang namin kayo nakasama.."

Oh, tarush.

Im glad na-appreciate nila ang aming presence, though first time lang namin sila nakasama, pero may connect na agad.

Nakakalungkot, ngayon ko lang nakikilala ang mga taong "masayang kasama", kung kelan malapit na akong mag lumipat ng ibang company. (Still Unsure..)

Ang ending, laging hindi natutuloy ang mga balak kong paglisan sa kompanyang ito, dahil bukod sa 13th month pay na malapit na eh, etong mga friends ko na hindi ko maiwan iwan, at aside from the support of my family, my friends are the main reason why i "still" have the willingness to wake and get up for work!

Unfortunately......

2009-06-21T10:23:00.000+08:00

my phone charger was in total wreck....

i had to fix it and ito ang outcome....

It's not that I can't afford to buy a new one. It's just that it got broke, at 2 o'clock midnight, so wala na akong mabibilhan during that time, and almost 6hrs nang empty bat ang phone ko, kawawa naman ang mga texters ko.

i love making butingting and kalikot, wires, cables. Siguro I could be a good Electrician or cable man given a chance. hehehe. I fix minor busted electric fan, rice cooker plugs, charger, anything na akala nila sira na at hindi na magagamit pa, pero pag inayos ko, puwede pa pala.

Minsan nakuryente na rin ako, kakakalikot ng wires, pero mild lang.

At ang huli kong kinalikot dati na sobrang ikinalungkot ko at hindi ko pinagtagumpayan, ay ang classic na PS1 na sira ang lens/disc reader. Ayun, kinalas ko, lalong nasira.
(Buti na lang may PSP na..)

Relieved,,,

2009-06-07T01:21:00.000+08:00

Last Year, Nauso sa office ang Loans , correct. Ch-naT-r-st Bank.
Sabi ko try ko lang. P30K ang na-approve sa credentials ko.

1 year to pay. P2916.oo every month.

Hindi ko na sasabihin kung saan ko ginamit ang pera! ehem.
Ayun na nga.

Noong first few months, parang walang epekto, normal naman ang payments ko.

Hanggang dumating sa point , siguro noong mga ika-11th month (out of 12 months) tinatamad na akong magbayad.

P900 ang penalty kapag delayed payment - kahit 1 day lang.

Hindi ko nabayaran ang last payment.

Until after 2-3 months, I got a Letter from a chipipay Law Firm, that the P2916.oo ay umakyat ng P6200.oo

Ayun ang napala ko sa katamaran ko.

I consulted my friend who's an agent from that Loan Bank, na I just needed to Pay the remaining balance of P2916.oo and not the P6200.oo from the Law Firm.

Pumoporsiyento pala ang mga hitad na Law Firm na ito kaya mas lumaki ang balance ko.

The next day after I received the letter of chorva and after consulting my friend, I headed straight to Ch--aTr-st Bank after Work.

Traffic. May Barilan sa Mission Hospital. Buset. Buti na lang 1:00 pm nakarating na ko sa Ortigas Site ng Bank.

I settled everything na. Up to the last Cent.
Natakot e. Baka umabot pa ng thousands if I don't pay it asap.

Hay, sarap ng walang iniitinding side expenses. Whew.

Hmmm.
Kaya siguro declined ako sa application ko for credit card....
Kasi during that time, that my Loan pending credit was Visible sa mga Bank(s) System Database.

Lemon cut into Halves

2009-05-06T10:11:00.000+08:00

-charing lang sa title! hahaha. Para maiba nman, hindi ko ni-relate sa body. Harhar!

I always hear people say, that "..age (really) matters".

This crossed my mind one morning, i thought of my past relationships, lahat sila mas bata sa akin.

Tatlo lang naman sila.

When I like someone, I wouldn't ask what's his age. Of course the first thing you want to know is the name. Then hanggang sobrang na fall na ko for these people. In the middle of the bonded friendship, magugulat nalang ako na mas bata pala sila sa akin.

I wonder if those we're all co-incidence.

Though age has nothing to do with any couple's relationship. I can't help but joke about this with my friends. Age gap for that matter.

Hindi naman ma-coconsider na May-December relationship ang mga pinagdaanan ko. Pero in a way.. slight lang. 2-3 years older lang naman ako sa past mga boylets ko. =)

It would be nice to meet someone my age. Or someone older than me. Someone who's emotionally stable. But of course, life's full of surprises. Who knows what's ahead?

Choose what you love. Love your choice.

According to my Dictionary

2009-04-29T23:39:00.000+08:00

This is my definition of the word DIETING.

(don't mind my messy desk,ahihihi)

Just came home from Trinoma, which i think is very similar to Glorrieta. My sis and I, shopped for some girl stuffs. And unfortunately, ako ang taya. *sniff*

From a tiring walk and window shopping.. we stopped and ate for a snack. Snack ba yun? eh parang heavy meal na ang whole ziti and brocolli pizza slice and large soda? Goodluck. Welcome carbs.

I hate it when I'm in the mood for diet, eh saka naman bongga ang appetite ko. Tempting foods are soooo magnified, 5-10x....

I badly needed to hit the gym, or else, i might look like a can of soda in few months time.... Scary.

And this is what i have for dinner? A slice of devilish choco roll and another glass of soda?

Arggghhh..... well, the dumbels and elliptical machine can wait, but my taste buds can't.

Anyways, a gym near our pad is about to be open for business, in few days time.

so for now.. i'll have my choco slice muna... :p

How to Avoid Me?

2009-04-23T19:53:00.000+08:00

....you must Kiss and tELL....

This is what you do, for me to kick you out of my life. I hate and pity those people who couldn't keep tiny, little secrets.

"..punch me , i Bleed .." - Pete

Ahem. Present. Just like Pete(Toby)...

I'm just a human. I make mistakes. A lot. But I learned, and (must) try not to do the same mistakes.

I don't really consider him as a Mistake. But partly He is.

My friends , keeps on telling me , act naturally as if nothing happened.

I admit He isn't worth my tears. I couldn't and doesn't have (any) regrets, at all.

He was just one of the Supporting Character(s) in my Book, and unfornately, his scene in my Life's Chapter, has to end. Now.

I'm going to avoid him, not because I wanted to. But because, I needed to.

He's not the same friend I used to know. It's better for me to leave, keeping with me, the fun and laughter we shared. Than to leave, with nothing but bitterness and grudge towards him.

He may not know, as of the moment how to value (true and fun) friendship.
Ignorant about the importance of keeping secrets and how to be trustworthy. But I know someday, He will.

If , unfortunately.. in the future, someone would do same (bad) thing to him, He will remember 2 things only.

1. the Pain

2. And my Name.

I sure am, gonna miss you.

Hiding Inside Myself...

2009-04-07T18:47:00.000+08:00

...the title of the blog is the most appropriate line of the song for the famous badings, pamingkian and *paminta, bow. (tomboyish excluded-for the record)

I don't have anything against 3rd sex...

I actually like those paminta- being vain and sobrang amoy mabango physique...

I wish I have a super frend na bading or paminta lang, coz I love their spontaneity.. whether in action or the way they speak... kwela...

Luv *'em!

...(*crossed-fingers* for something intriguing....)

my fave past time

2008-09-29T17:48:00.000+08:00

i love everything bout this anime.. i like watcing it and i make sure im always updated.

my fave character is ichigo and arrancar nel-tu..

try it yourself, its not too late.

download full Bleach episodes at http://realitylapse.com

im a certified Otaku... :)

what you see is not what you get

2008-08-09T12:05:00.000+08:00

--oo00oo- -o0o- oo00oo--

sometimes we can edit what we say, just like in sketching, you can erase some of the details that you don't want on it..

same thing with the people around, they might look stiff on the outside but really mushy once we get to know them. and vice versa. some are angelic on their physique but, devilish and faker once they have unmasked.

i've been acquainted with some people, but never get to be close to them because i always misjudge them, coz i find them bitch and stuffs.

i realized that i have missed a lot coz of these wrong impression i had with the people around me.

but now, i learned my lesson....

dont judge a book by its cover, coz you're not a judge..

underground band

2008-08-02T13:19:00.000+08:00

this band is composed of 5 guys, all of them works in the same company where i work.
but their vocalist is the one who excites me.

they play for the company if theres like occassions, special events, programs.

one day their vocalist sent me one of their gig-mp3 song and video.
(which makes it 8 songs in all and i saved it all on my fone too) and im very amazed coz he really has a soothing and relaxing voice.
and we became friends, through chat and gmail, and we often bump into each other in the office.

though he's not the typical boy next door looking guy, im really in to his voice.
he's very fluent and good conversant too.

i hope theyll have more gigs for the company. so that he can send me more songs.
i really like his voice and the way he sings......

NKATAWID KNB SA BASANG MISWA?

2008-05-31T14:41:00.000+08:00

Have you ever been caught in a maze. That you're confused which road to travel or whose advise you take? Na sa sobrang hirap ay prang sinabi na nilang "tumawid ka nalang kya sa Basang Miswa?"

I can relate to this, coz as of the moment i want to land a new job, but still doesnt know what that would be. I could remember the song goes, "..do not be afraid if you dont know what you want until now.. some people on their 40's still doesn't.."

I have only two options (and i need to hurry and make this happen) :

1. to work overseas. any job which isnt demoralizing. ( In life there are two kinds of battle: Battle of Life and Battle of Pride, whichever you choose make sure you fight with all gears you have..

2. is to work for a higher position in a Telecommunications Industry..

As of the moment, i dont care if newer batches gets promoted.. i always think that .. in the end, it's not what you have and what you have reached.. but it's HOW YOU are Remembered , for who you are, and what you are to them..

Have you gone through the most difficult decision making once in your life?

in tagalog:
Naranasan mo na bang tumawid sa Basang Miswa ?

cyber thing

2008-05-30T09:38:00.000+08:00

I was in a chat room one night and someone buzzed me and said hi to me. He has a cute avatar that caught my attention and we ended up as textmates. We live in the same metro but different city.

One day he started setting up dates and meeting places, so we could see each other finally, but up until now (after being chatmates and textmates for months) the meeting hasnt come to reality, because of our schedule differences.

I'm still in doubt if i would really push through the meeting day, because the weird feeling of meeting a total stranger in person.

I dont want to base my feelings on how we forward messages to each other coz i know, texts messages shouldnt be a big deal. ( Though we have seen each other in cam already, that still doesnt equal seeing each other in person ).*sigh*

moving on..

2008-05-29T17:47:00.000+08:00

I've crossed a road , i never imagine i would.. it was the most idle time in my life, that he came.. and made my world different and somewhat special, even for a while..

But life has challenged me, that we can't have everything in this world, it has been over 5 months, and i still remember some of the smallest details of it. *btw, only the bad things*

Whoever he is that could replace the bad memories i had, i hope he arrive sooner, and help me finally forget the negative things that happened..